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By Petra Prensky

The drunken state of love
is no match for the
prudent working man.

Let the trumpets sound
and shake the earth
to announce the beginning
of the gathering of lovers.

The accountant on his desk
will but scratch his nose
as a promise of future participation.

By Petra Prensky

What better ecstasy
Than to
Continuously
Disperse my self
Into tiny seeds
Planted among
One thousand hearts

Accepting things as they are

When we accept things as they are, there is no more need to judge, make excuses, lie, call names, feel guilty, explain, defend. There is no more need to save our own skin by blaming and accusing others.
Instead we become firmly grounded in gratitude, love, acceptance, beauty and seeing the divine order in everything. We start to lose our limited ego identification and instead reconnect with our soul, the divine spark in us all that connects us as one. We become conscious players in the divine tragicomedy called life. Only now, we are aware that we are not only stuck as actresses with a script somebody else wrote for us, but that we are also able to rewrite the script anytime we want to and direct the play with our own consciousness.
Realizing this can be frightening. “What do you mean, I can rewrite my script and direct the play?” “How should that work?” “If everyone did that, wouldn’t we have complete anarchy and chaos?” “I am scared to do that and even though I don’t like my life and my circumstances, it is the only thing I know. How can I create something that I don’t know about?”
If you conceive it and believe it, you can achieve it. Making the shift is not something that takes place overnight. You actually have all the time in the world to do it. However, at this time in our human-global interaction we all start to perceive the urgency to make a shift happen. Global warming, solar dimming, the Mayan and other calendars coming to an end in 2012, pollution, obesity, increase in child diseases, fertility crisis, shrinking population, war, natural disasters give us glimpses that nothing more than the extinction of our human species is at stake. It is a pivotal time for the critical mass to make a quantum leap.
This shift in consciousness has to happen in each and every one of us. A shift in power starts with the people. We can no longer look at the government or corporations to guide our future. We have to make the internal shift, grow up and take responsibility for our choices. Be they what we consume, what we do, what we say, how we interact, even how and what we think.
Like the actresses in the play, it is time for us to read the script we have been operating on, take a red pen, some new paper and pen and rewrite our role, our habits, our behavior, our speech, our actions, our belief system and our internal dialogue.
Deep in our hearts and souls we have buried the blue print for our life’s purpose. Deep inside of us we know our highest potential. Our heart’s desires show us the way. Gentle excavation is necessary since there is also all the pain and rejection we have ever experienced stored deep within ourselves.

Once we connect with the pain, accept it and use it as the fertilizer for our growth, the happiness, lightness and inner peace that we will gain, is the light at the end of the tunnel. It is the promise to live heaven on earth now in this incarnation.

It doesn’t interest me if there is one God
Or many gods.
I want to know
If you belong or feel abandoned.
If you know despair or can you see it in others.
I want to know
If you are prepared to live in the world
With its harsh need to change you.
If you can look back with firm eyes
Saying this is where I stand.
I want to know
If you know
How to melt into the fierce heat of living,
Falling toward
The center of your longing.
I want to know
If you are willing
To live, day by day with the consequence of love
and the bitter unwanted passion of your sure defeat.
I have been told, in that fierce embrace,
even the gods speak of God.

By Petra Prensky

I am a prisoner of my inner reality.
How I long to be free.
How I long to reach out and connect.
How I long to be held, touched just right.

There are so many fears, so much sorrow, so much grief.
Will I ever be free?
Will the pain ever recede?
Will my tears ever be enough?

Silence, I am tormented by silence; my own silence.
There is so much emotion in me.
I am afraid that I am too much.

So I am hiding. I am hiding my feelings, my longings, my pains.
I hold on to the secrets. I keep my mouth shut.
I don’t see, I don’t hear, I don’t speak.

Trapped in my own complicated self.
I want to throw all that, which is binding me, over board.
But I guess that would be too dramatic, too fast, too frightening.

So I take the slow and steady way, feeling myself through it all,
Suffering, crying, shaking in my room alone.
Sucking it all in, cleaning up the tears, putting a smile on, facing the world.

Facing the people that I crave to be held by.
Being tough, keeping it together.
When all I want is to fall apart while being seen, being held.

I am so scared of touch and I crave it like no other.
My misery is private,
I don’t want to burden anybody with my pain, my vulnerability.

It’s not been safe to be so vulnerable.
It’s been unforgiving, harsh and lonely.
I am like a big iceberg, frozen rigid and cold.

My emotions even though painful are the key to my freedom.
My suffering makes me cry, shake, rattle my cage.
In time I will break free of my own bondage.
Free to look you in the eyes and speak my truth.

Beloved Friend,

In your last email you wrote: “I am so happy that you don’t have any problems dealing with my recent past. Thank you for that, ‘cause sometimes I am still very insecure if I tell someone what happened to me…”
No, I do not have any problems with your recent past. I believe that these major life events are there to help us redirect our life, to go through our past and see what works and what did not and to make new commitments to ourselves.
Most of all I believe they are a chance to accept and love ourselves so much more and deeper. So, I think that having gone through the illness has probably made you a more gentle, caring, loving person. You are probably deeper, humbler and more mature because of it.
So instead of it scaring me, it made me feel more interested in you, who you have become and who you are becoming. Lots of love to you always…

The founder and chairman of the Virgin Group and the Governor of California are both set on saving the planet. So is the six year old mega hit “American Idol”. In “Idol Gives Back”, a historic, two-night special TV event that aired on April 24 and 25, will save and change the lives of children and young people in extreme poverty in both the USA and Africa. So far they have collected over $70 million and are still going. Even the president, Mr. And Mrs. Bush, felt inclined to send a video message to the American Idol viewers and thank them for their generosity and kindness.

Now if only he would not waste billions of dollars every day in a war that was started illegally. The good thing about 9/11 and the war is, that there are that many people less, who will pollute the planet. But let’s not get sarcastic and harden ourselves, neither to what’s going on nor to the fact that we are in a big mess.

Not only has our meddling in other countries made us an even bigger target for hatred. But by choosing to send our young minds to a war that will not have any victors, we gambled with way too many lives. A whole generation has lost their innocence. Atrocities that Americans inflict on the so called enemies are going to cost us all dearly. The VA already is overwhelmed with the amount of Veterans who are suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorders. They are in no way equipped to deal with the new and daunting task of healing the minds of the people we sent into war.

I guess the good thing about this war is that it is waking us all up. It is getting harder to find anyone in the US who is not personally affected by this war. Sure there are those that make America the land of the beautiful. The men and women who do not want to get bothered and drown themselves in partying, going on shopping sprees and scheduling the next botox injection and boob, nose or butt job.

However, it does get more and more difficult to adopt the three monkey aditude of: don’t see, don’t hear and don’t talk. Thanks to Bono from U2 “Red” products are in all the fancy stores. Dedicated to giving part of the proceeds to fight poverty. Famous and accomplished people are stepping up and making a statement. Athletes unite, Rockstars are flying to Africa and sending heart wrenching videos of starved kids back. Bill Gates, Richard Branson and other big money and business people have causes they rally for.

What about the rich and famous who don’t care? Let’s look at the poster child of the spoiled-rotten, self-absorbed, consumer generation: Paris Hilton. She is the perfect mirror for the USA. She is the personification of what is wrong with our society. She is the born princess of America. Her status as the “it” girl is unchallenged. She is the role model for so many teenage girls.

The USA as well is not in its infancy but being a misbehaved, on the loose teenager without parental guidance. As for Miss Paris Hilton, I do believe that she will jump on the bandwagon and in time dedicate herself to a cause that is bigger than her own person. She will also inspire all of her groupies to do the same, simply because it is the next big thing and the hip thing to do.

As for the government: I find hope in the ex-terminator and Governor of California who proofs that the term conscientious government is no longer an oxymoron. Yes we are driven by money, but what happens, when the people behind the big money are changing their focus? Money will guide our future. Luckily, the ones who have it also seem to possess values like gratitude, compassion, clear vision and charity.

What will our country look like when the ones in political power also adapt their practices, become conscientious and choose the values of gratitude, compassion, clear vision and charity? Now that would be a country to be proud of.

Let’s demand that we use our position in the world to make peace not war, to be the solution to the problem and not the cause of it, to end hunger, poverty and ensure that the young minds get the education they deserve and inherit a safe and well kept environment.

Let’s show the world that we have grown up, that we are taking responsibility for our mistakes and had a serious change of heart. This way we all can stand up tall and proudly declare: “I am an American” without getting booed at by the rest of the world, but cheered on as we cheer them on, to together save our planet and our own souls.

Absolutely! Welcome to the most extreme attempt to control the sale and use of dietary supplements ever seen. This past December, the FDA put a document on its web site titled “Draft Guidance for Industry on Complementary and Alternative Medicine Products and Their Regulation by the Food and Drug Administration.” This document is open to public comments until April 30, 2007 - just a few days from now.

• Do we already have a health care system that is unaffordable and becoming a major social problem for the US?
• Do we need to compound the injury by adding more regulations and restrictions?
• Do we want to enslave people even more to be part of the failing medical system?

Or

• Do we stop the course of dependency?
• Do we stop meddling in areas where the public can be self sufficient and take charge of their own lives if left alone?
• Do we empower our people or do we give power to a select few, who are already lining their pockets?

Modern medicine is still in its infancy compared to the history of the human race. Who needs complementary and alternative medicine to be regulated? The drug company, the doctors and the health care system do, not the people. What the people need, is easy access to complementary and alternative medicine products. So that they can keep taking care of themselves as they have for hundreds of years. Keep big business and government out of self care. Stop meddling and interfering in the health aspects that work and focus instead on regulating the outrageous price margins that the Pharma industry puts on its drugs. Keep medicine affordable and accessible at all cost to avoid a complete collapse of the health care system once and for all.

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Time to act!
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If left undone, supplements might become so tightly regulated that you would have to get a doctor’s prescription to use them.

Of all the times to raise our voices, none is more important than this time.

You can find the full text of the FDA document at this link:

http://www.fda.gov/OHRMS/DOCKETS/98fr/06d-0480-gld0001.pdf

And you can use this link to submit your comments:

http://www.accessdata.fda.gov/scripts/oc/dockets/comments/COMMENTSMain.CFM?EC_DOCUMENT_ID=1451&SUBTYP=CONTINUE&CID=&AGENCY=FDA

In addition, we also need to let our representatives in Washington know that we strongly resist this attack on our healthcare freedom. You can find the names and e-mail addresses for your congressmen at this web site: congress.org.

This is part I of the series:

Emotions, Behaviors and our Kids

In the first 16 years of my life I experienced repeated molestations from various different sources and directions. Being the polite, nice girl I never learned to speak up. I never learned to set boundaries. I never learned that I could share my misery with a caring adult, who listens and doesn’t judge. So I internalized it all. I withdrew and became even more shy. Since I never experienced any adults around me empathizing with my feelings and validating them, I too started to discount them and even started telling myself that the molestation was not really that bad, that I didn’t really get hurt and worst of all that I was safe.

So it is no wonder that 20 years later, when I hear a caregiver say to my 2 year old: “Oh don’t cry, it is nothing.” I go out there and teach her about empathy. I tell her that in our parenting style we are doing something that is called empathy. “It is about validating his feelings.” I then proceeded by asking my child who was still crying in my arms: ”Did you hurt yourself? Where are you hurting? You must feel shocked that this happened. Are you still crying because you feel upset that you fell?”

If the emphasis of parenting is on validating what is going on for everybody involved and less on politeness and being a nice girl or a good boy, our relationships would look way different. We would have learned to set appropriate boundaries. Say “Yes” when we mean yes and “No” when we mean no. We would have learned the skill of feeling into any given situation and person and the willingness to understand life as they see it. We would have learned that we matter and that we can make a difference. In the old style of parenting we are left to feel different, not part of, me versus the rest of the world, alienated from our truth and full of inner struggle between what we think we should do and what we want to do.

I am now healing the thought patterns of the effects of my upbringing. I am a lucky one. We all are. There is so much more information out and readily available. The subconscious mind of our species is realizing more about the subtleties of existence at a rapid pace. This means that we do not have to be bound to the past as much as just the generation before us was. With this gift comes also a responsibility. We owe it to our selves, to the generations before and after us, to do as much as we can to stop the perpetuation of hurt.

Every one of us is so unique, so stopping the perpetuation of hurt means different things to each one of us. The way I believe I serve the best is to continually search to uncover old patterns of behavior and thought that don’t serve me anymore. I do this by engaging into what I am passionate about: Writing, dancing, singing, drawing, organizing, being creative, teaching, loving, serving and following my bliss.

I am happy and proud of my past. It made me the person I am. I do not regret anything. I know that I and everybody around me did the best we knew. Life is a dance and we are the prima ballerina as well as the stage hand, the make up artist, the seamstress, the choreographer, the chorus girls, the audience, the light and sound engineers. My dance with life made me more caring, courageous, deep, graceful, passionate, powerful and certainly stronger.